Friday, May 4, 2012

Green Light for Hippotherapy

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Green Light for Hippotherapy Today was Noah's Hippotherapy Evaluation to see if the program would be good match for him. Noah was accepted for hippotherapy to begin in June. The facility was really nice, they had other handicapped riders there, two adults that were in wheelchairs. It was really nice to see the care, attention and expertise they have for therapeutic riding. Everyone was very friendly, loving, nice and most of all patient with Noah. Usually Noah has extreme difficulties with things on his feet or head, but tolerated the riding hat beautifully - even given considering that it was slightly big for him. He was a bit unsure I think making some nervous squeals, but was very happy as when the therapist would sing to him or when the horse was moving. Noah loves to be on the move. This was the first time that we handed Noah over to someone for therapy while we sat on the sidelines. It was different for us just watching Noah go round the indoor arena on a beautiful horse named Dock.

Noah could only ride with his legs apart for a brief while and then had to switch to side sitting on the horse. He had three attendants and a therapist assisting him ride. We hope that this will very much help Noah with his head and trunk control. He had many moments of slouching and looking downwards which the therapist assured us was contributed to the weight of his helmet which we must use for safety. Chris was able to join us today as we needed his help since it as a slightly longer drive for Noah to get there. He usually doesn't have many opportunities to witness Noah participating in therapy since he is at work when most of them are scheduled. I detected sadness today from him as he turned to me saying "it's terrible that we even have to do this." In translation I knew his heart was trying to tell me it was difficult for him to watch his first born son struggle so much. And it is difficult to watch Noah struggle to do something that should come naturally like lifting his head, or sit, but we have to swallow that pain and tuck it very deep so that we can continue on to help in the only ways we know how. We must only show him only our support and praise - never our fear and pain.

This, like most of Noah's therapies are not covered by his Medicaid. It will cost: ($800 June 4th-August 11th) ($1120 Sept 4th=December 17th) ($1120 January 21st-May 11th) $3040 for 1 year. These are not easy things amounts for us to come up with, if you imagine that we do 6 other types of therapies that are also not covered by Noah's Medicaid and are out of pocket costs as well. I try to hunt foundations and grants the best I can, but there are only so many avenues of help, only so many times you can even fundraise before you've exhausted all the goodwill and love the world can give to Noah. Not to mention that there is a level of self-pride that you must continually swallow each time you ask for help. It's not easy, and nothing about it is fun. It's probably the only time I've ever felt ashamed in my life - admitting that I cannot help my child with our own resources. It is taking more than a village it feels like it is taking the universe most days just to get through Noah's daily needs. No one could ever truly imagine the costs associated with a special needs child unless you were living it. Astronomical is an understatement. As with everything I'm just taking it a day at a time - sometimes a minute at a time.


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