|Book by Marji Jackson|
The thing is though God gave me my miracle in the days and weeks after Noah's birth. Against all odds, with the belief that Noah didn't even have a functioning brain stem as a result of his severe anoxic brain injury, he survived when we removed him from life support. I prayed so hard that God would spare him, and I even told God I'd take him any way that I could have him. In my heart I accepted that I'd be okay with anything that came along with Noah if I could just please have his life - no matter how that looked. My simple prayer was answered. Not all prayers are and I'm really blessed, so blessed that my cries for my son were heard.
Through the years I've come to accept that miracles are going to look differently for everyone. People don't really acknowledge a miracle unless it represents full healing or a cure. In fact many times in the past people have called me out on even titling Noah's blog Noah's Miracle since he is severely disabled and never found healing that left him fully restored and a typical child. It is hard for others to understand and accept that Noah's Miracle came from the fact that he survived -when no one believed he had a chance. He's still here.
A mom still battling her own grief, challenged what about the child she lost? Why are some granted a miracle of surviving just like Noah? When she did not pray any less than I did, didn't beg God any less than I did. There is no secret recipe to receiving a Miracle. I wish there was, can you imagine how much pain it would spare all of us? Her child no less precious, no less deserving of a beautiful and full life, and cancer won. Whether we are gifted with three minutes of life, ten years, or fifty decades, I want to believe each individual story and impact we have while we are here means something, and perhaps sometimes we've accomplished what God intended us to do with the amount of time we're given and maybe that's the real miracle.
So, I was able to watch Miracles From Heaven, without a heavy heart. Without resentment that a family received full healing when my child did not. I am able to find peace with the fact that miracles come in different forms. And my miracle and your miracle aren't always going to look identical to each other. And each day I surround myself gifts Noah has been given that serve as gentle reminders Noah's Miracle; a book re-purposed and folded to say Miracles made by a sweet friend Marji Jackson, Noah's Miracle badge that he received from a loving heart in Australia and her business called Heavenly Trimmings. God never fails to send me reminders so that I never ever forget the incredible miracle that I have been given.
|Noah's Heavenly Trimmings Miracle Badge|
Many blessings and love,
Noah's Miracle by Stacy Warden is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-No Derivative Works 3.0 United States License.