After many months of anticipation, a cancelled appointment due to weather conditions and a rescheduled appointment, Noah finally had his independent wheelchair evaluation the first week in February. I admit I had butterflies in the pit of my stomach for the early morning hours. This journey often feels like it's always an uphill battle no matter what aspect you are facing. And in many respects I often feel like I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop. Another hurdle, another roadblock, a challenge I have to find a way to overcome.
guarded my feelings, hoping for the best but quite honestly expecting
the worst. And I don't mean that to sound pessimistic. We've been
through so much as a family and continue to face tremendous challenges
when it comes to helping Noah, that you try to protect yourself from the
utter disappointment that sends you spiraling into a ball of heaping
tears when no one wants to help your child or believe in all things
In a lot of ways I think we've been really unlucky
with some people that have come our way - and part of it is a learning
experience and getting your footing with the system, with the people
within that system, and finding a team of people who have an interest in
your child's success and life - just beyond a paycheck.
we arrived, I was so relieved to see Noah's speech therapist, who out of
the kindness of her heart attended the appointment with us to offer
great feedback and suggestions on Noah's needs and to explore the
possibility of mounting options for Noah's Tobii eye gaze communication
device. We were quickly met by the equipment vendor representative,
and the independent evaluator.
As soon as questions like "what
do you hope to accomplish today" was asked, I thought well expect to be
told that Noah isn't going to get a recommendation for a power
But to the contrary, I found that the independent
evaluator was simply being a very detailed listener, feeling me out as a
parent, and Noah as a child. Understandably, I think there are some
parents that are so desperate for their child to meet milestones and
find progress and recovery that they can often times push a child beyond
their limits, while other parents, like myself adopt the philosophy
that all things are possible... but in what we call "Noah time" - it's
when he's ready and not a moment before. We are simply just the vehicle
to allow Noah opportunities when he decides he's ready to accomplish
something new in his life. Neither approaches are wrong, but simply a
matter of different parenting styles, which exist within both the
special needs community and those parenting typical children. In any
event, I felt the evaluator wanted to know which style we more closely
adopted in order to know how to pursue the best independent power
wheelchair options for Noah.
I was rather distracted at this
power wheelchair evaluation which left me feeling a little uneasy
because I couldn't properly focus on Noah's performance and how he was
doing opposed to the other trial attempts he did previously with a
different agency that resulted in a rude therapist denial. There was an
elderly lady in a power wheelchair rather desperate to have a
conversation with me about her twin grandchildren who were born with
severe disabilities, and she wanted to compare Noah's age relative to
his disabilities in hopes it would give her an indication of what to
expect with her own grandchildren. But cerebral palsy is a tricky
thing like that. It comes with a wide range of outcomes and prognosis.
And then there was Luke - into everything he could be and chasing him
around here and there. I had to just hope that Noah was demonstrating
what I knew he was capable of doing and what he had seen him do many
I held my breath, still rather waiting for the
tremendous let-down. We've suffered so many negative blows that you
come to expect poor news before the good news. I don't think I believed
it until the speech therapist repeated the recommendation the
independent evaluator gave and they brought in the model of power
wheelchair that Noah would be receiving. It was one of those please
pinch me I'm dreaming moments. I knew Noah deserved this chance, I know
he is capable of driving - it was just a matter of getting someone to
For the first time I think maybe ever, this evaluator
confirmed what I always knew to be true. Noah is cognitively very
bright, that he craves to learn as he understands his surroundings and
has the concept of cause and effect - that he is simply locked in a body
that has many challenges.
Noah will likely stop and go by
using the sides of his heads, and at this time it looks like he will
turn left and right by using his knees. This of course could change
with Noah's continued progress with all of his therapies and with age.
He has althetoid movements which he may learn to gain better control of
as he gets a little older with more help. And then he very well may be
capable of driving with hand controls, turning or stopping with another
Noah will be getting the Koala Power Wheelchair and it
will be used in conjunction with his Custom Aspen Seating System.
Although Noah now has the therapist and doctor recommendation needed to
move forward, we now await the Medicaid funding approval process, which
unfortunately and inevitably takes time. Our hopes are that Noah will
have a power wheelchair by late summer early fall at the latest. And we
must also pray that there are no elements to the request that will
result in a Medicaid denial and appeal.
I couldn't be more
proud of Noah and more glad that we sought a second opinion. And, I
think we really found someone who genuinely took an interest in Noah's
needs. I look forward to having this evaluator help us in the future
with Noah. Her expertise and knowledge are tremendous and I'm thankful
that prayers were answered.
Noah's Miracle by Stacy Warden is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-No Derivative Works 3.0 United States License.