Noah had a really good Christmas. It was especially magical this year with all of help from Santa's Elves that came from all different places to make sure Noah had a wonderful Christmas. Noah still was fussy over opening presents, maybe it's the noise or the crunch of the paper or the frustration knowing he can't do it. Some of his gifts were an automatic hit, while his daddy and I are trying to slowly get him used to the original Tickle Me Elmo. As soon as that Elmo hits the ground he screams with fear. Sometimes it is just so hard to know what Noah can handle sensory wise and what just blows his senses to pieces. We're still hopeful that it all will get better with time. But it's hard sometimes to watch your child be frightened of certain toys or not be able to play with the majority of them without your help. Sometimes you just want to cry because you just can't fix any of it for your child. Balancing that feeling of helplessness and hopefulness is tricky.
Noah spent the morning watching Christmas paper be tossed around and his new DVD's. Hopefully with each passing year he'll be able to participate more and more. I fixed just a tiny little dinner for us, and we had Noah's giant cake that we'll probably be eating the rest of the week. We're looking forward to the new year. There is something always interesting about the idea of the new year being able to bring about wonderful things. I have no resolutions, only a million wishes. But I don't think it's customary to get wishes granted upon New Years. Yet I'll toast to my sparkling pear juice probably around 9pm since I drop early, and still cross all my fingers and toes that we'll find a way to make it through the new year, provide for Noah's therapies, and that the year will be filled with new beginnings for Noah. Maybe this is the year he will learn to sit, or even army crawl or say a first word... wishes. But it's all up to Noah and I just have to follow his lead. We will open a book. All of the pages will be blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called "Hope" and its first chapter is New Year's Day.
"And I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year: Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown. And he replied: Go out into the darkness and put your hand into the hand of God. That shall be to you better than light, and safer than a known way." Minnie Haskins
Love,
Noah's Miracle by Stacy Warden is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-No Derivative Works 3.0 United States License.
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